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Hmmm. A new thought occurs to me.  Sometimes you must crash head on into yourself, feel the pain, work through ‪healing from bumps and bruises and scrapes in order to be you – in order to get healed and whole.

Maybe that heavy duty protective bumper needed to get torn off – wretched to smithereens n order for u to find the real, hidden you.

Maybe now u can’t hide. Maybe now there’s no protective ‪barrier between u & the world. Now it’s real. Now we see you’re one of us. ‪Refreshing

No one here will point the finger. Who’s gonna cast the first stone? I only hear the rocks falling, falling to the ground – one by one. There’s no accuser here. ‪Redeemed

Your engine’s showing. The heart of you – yes we can see it now. We hear now a soft beating, though faint, growing stronger – your ‪heart beat. Who knew it was do strong! We needed to hear it. It is a ‪beautiful sound. Rev it up.

 

Copyright 2013 Marvia P Davidson

Sometimes in the Random

Ever catch a fleeting glimpse of yourself – the real self – like a flash of lightning?  In an instant you see a picture of what who you could be, but in that same instant it’s gone.  You grasp at it.  Futile. Those moments can be frustrating, but I’m learning if I settle into the unrest of the moment, the flash will come again.  It will stay moments longer.  The more I give myself to being in the stillness of the chaos; those flashes turn to steady-staying light, and I can focus on the forming me.  Then comes that moment.  You know the one.  It’s the AHA! moment of the soul.  The moment you realize, “this is who I really am!  Why have I been hiding?”  Some days are harder than others.  Some days are drudgery.  You make yourself push through the foggy unclear.  And some days you just have to crash your own life. I do mean literally.

Random Oddities by Marvia Davidson

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Miles to Go…So Much to Be Done

So much to be done.  So much to be said.  So much to believe.  It is enough.  It is too much.  It is not enough.  It is more than the mind can encompass and She’s still got miles to go.

She’ll keep running.  She’ll keep moving forward.  She is only one of many.  She is a voice, peaking out from a hidden corner.  A whisper growing in the dark, “I’m here. Now what?”

Whisper she hears, “Forward and believe.”

Bright lights. Life sounds.  Incredible movement flowing here, there, and everywhere.  Create.  Space.  Space to create. The burden will not leave until it has spoken.  Then sits she here or there in the silence – waiting, waiting, waiting with miles still to go.

Outer branches hide the heart flurries.  No one sees the hidden depth.  No danger here as far as they can see.  She, in the shadow of the Wing, in the cleft of the Rock, is peaking from behind Him. “Is it okay to come out now?”  Peaking still from hidden corners.

Whispers she hears.  A song is sung that she’s heard over and over again.  So much to be done.  So much to be said.  Still so much to be and miles to go and go and go. “Forward and believe,” says He.

Rustling leaves.  Wind blows.  Dead things fall.  She is revealed.  One eye opened, the other squinting in reflex while whispers she hears, “come out, come out. It’s okay.”

One step forward.  Free falling.  She is not afraid.  Whirling and twirling in a fog of thoughts, out of bounds she is.  Whispers she hears.  Still His song, “stay with Me, stay.  I’ll catch you.” Miles to go she knows, but He here to hold her up with so much to be done, in her heart’s it’s been said.  She believes.  He is enough.

 

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I Made the Mistake…

Of looking into another’s lane.  Bad move.  I lost my footing.  Lost my ground.  Got turned around.  I made the mistake – one so very fatal – comparison.  It can strike at any time while on the journey to your dream.  Perhaps that’s what need to happen to us sometimes to help us catch hold of our God and His vision for us – the one we keep thinking is too big to pursue.  But, it is worth it.  I’m preaching to the choir here because I find myself in unchartered territories.  Nothing here is making any near or remote kind of sense.  It is out of the galaxy of my mind.  Here, there, and everywhere are dreams bursting and making  difference.  And here I am…silent.  Wondering, waiting, talking myself down from the ledge of success.  The dream is bigger than me.  The burgeoning reality of the dream is frightful.  How can it be pursued if I know not its direction?  Is this that moment to take it and make it fly?  Is this the time to risk?

One Road Two Paths by Marvia Davidson
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You Can’t Judge Me–thoughts on real freedom

You.  Yeah, you.  I’m talking to you.  You can’t judge me.

Ever want to say it, but don’t.  Me too.  But I am reminded that there is only One Judge, and He is just, wise, merciful, and kind.  I may not be able to fight the battle, but I know He valiantly fights on my behalf.  More than this, I know that He keeps my heart in check when the desire is to strike out and defend myself.

2 Corinthians 4 reminds me of these things…how God is doing a wonderful work in me for His glory…

16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.

and then there’s this from 2 Corinthians 5

16 Therefore, from now on, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we have known Christ according to the flesh, yet now we know Him thus no longer. 17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 18 Now all things are of God, who has reconciled us to Himself through Jesus Christ, and has given us the ministry of reconciliation, 19 that is, that God was in Christ reconciling the world to Himself, not imputing their trespasses to them, and has committed to us the word of reconciliation.  20 Now then, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were pleading through us: we implore you on Christ’s behalf, be reconciled to God. 21 For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.

So God reminds me that He is all about restoration and intimate communion with His creation.  You see He does not leave us as orphans.  He comes to our rescue.  He does not leave us as we are.  He is the Balm of Gilead.  He is Healer, Restorer, Lover, Father, Lord, Friend, and Forgiver.  When we come to know Him, no other voices matter.  When we come to know Him, He has the final word in our lives.  When we come to know Him, it changes our destiny.  We are refined by Him and made to walk in newness of life.  Our life becomes a testament of God’s goodness, love, mercy, and forgiveness in our lives.

So here’s what up.  God, because of the sacrifice of Christ, no longer holds our sin and trespasses against us.  The Psalmist said “s far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us” (Psalm 103:12).  There is hope in Him.  He no longer sees the sin, but the blood of Jesus now atoning for our sins.  What a relief!

So, no.  You can’t judge me.  I cannot judge you.  We will all give an account in the end.  I don’t want to waste my life plotting revenge, or getting back, or engaging in tit-for-tat foolishness.  It is a waste of energy, time, and life purpose.  I will let God be God, and I will be His child.  I will love Him, love others, and do what His word says.

His grace (purchased by the spilled blood of Jesus) is more than enough to cover the multitude of your sin, my sin, and the sin of the world.

These are the ramblings in my head today.  What does God want me to know?  What does God want you to know?  Remember grace.  Remember the One to whom you belong.  Remember that you are no longer bound to the things of this world.  You are His child—beloved and forgiven, chosen and accepted.  You can leave it to God to take care of those who have harmed you, hurt you, or offended you.  It is the Word of Christ that brings life to your soul.  We no longer have to be a slave to what others think, say, or believe about us.  We are forever precious in God’s eyes.  No one and nothing can ever take that away from us. (Romans 8).

Keep forgiveness in your heart.  Don’t hold grudges or think ill will towards others.  Don’t fear the discipline of God.  Let God be God.  He is and always will be your Valiant Warrior.

Now go live in real freedom.