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Halfway Through the Winter

Winter marvia davidsonSomething had to die.  Things always die in the winter.  Our discontent – yours, mine – we’ve all experienced it in one form or another. While searching through Twitter, a couple of blogs, and contemplating a church sermon on “God’s Greatest Desire” (Morris, 2013). This phrase struck me: “we’re halfway through the winter.”  The middle is often the hardest place to be.   You can’t go back.  I mean you could, but it would be pointless and maybe fruitless.  You can only go forward.  So it is with winter.

It will end.  Death will end.  Life will spring again.  Newness like dew will be upon your heart, mind, body, and soul.  But still…something had to die before it came to be.  And I am undone.  What is that thing for you? For me, it’s a notion I carried for a long time about identity and belonging.  Funny, it always seems to boil back down to those two themes.  The notion had to die so I could really begin to learn to live.

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It Was Always Who You Were

Are you searching?  Are you wandering?  Are you waiting?  Are you lost?  Are you trying to articulate the jumble thoughts and ideas rumbling inside?  Read on.

This dream.  This desire.  This want.  Yeah.  It’s always been.  That thing you can’t quite put your finger on.  It was born in you.  It was part of the package called you.  You were created to be; so just…be.  The same is so for me as it is for you.  We were created for meaning and purpose.  Our lives our more than just the sum of it’s parts.  We are more than the work we rise to do.

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We are more than the wages we earn.  We are more than the titles that define the actions in which we engage.  We are more.  But how many of us are walking in the dark, under a cloud unable to see the light peaking from the mountain?  How many of just keep living in a state of eternal drudgery believing there’s nothing more?  Take a moment today to stop.  Cease and desist.  Relax.  Let your mind wander.  Be a kid again.  Take the time to know who you are and what you were really made for in this right-now-moment.   I am on this journey now.  This is what I know.

I am not my job.  I am not a title.  I am not hemmed in.  I am not trapped.  I am not worthless.  I am not without hope.  I am not insignificant.  If whose things are not who I am, then who am I?

I am loved.  I am a daughter of the King.  I am a lover of God.  I am cherished.  I belong.  I am beloved.  I am forgiven.  I am a singer, writer, and creative being.  I will make no apology for being my God-created myself.  I will not stifle the gift that is in me.  It was birthed in me ages before I came to be.  God had me in mind, gave me my skill set, gave me these vocal chords and words and percussive rhythms.  They are mine because they are His.  And God saw fit to give them to me.

Who am I to deny the expression of who God is in me?  So what is my choice?  I will sing back to Him the song He has sung in me –written eloquently upon the lines of my heart.  I’ll do it for the rest of my life.  I won’t stop.  I won’t give up.  I will not shrink back. I will not be afraid.  I will not be fearful.  I will not cower.  I will simply just be.  He paid a heavy price for me, and He is worth it all.  And at the end of the day, it’s not about me.  What He has birthed in me in for His glory and His fame.  Peter wrote these life-affirming words,

His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. (2 Peter 1:2-4, NIV)

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Think about it for a few moments.  God has given you everything you need to live life when you come to Christ.  Don’t know Christ?  All you have to do is believe, choose Him.  You will find deeper, abundant life.  You will find a forever love and matchless grace.  You will have truth that will make you eternally free.  Peter continued to encourage us by saying,

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins. Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble, and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  (2 Peter 1:5-11, NIV)

Are you willing to make the effort to know your calling, to know Whose you are, and what you were made to be?  I believe you will find peace that passes human understanding.  You will find deeper meaning. And you will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you were created for good works.  But more than any of these things, you will know you were made to just “be.”  To be what?  To be adopted into God’s family, to be a son of God, to be a daughter of God, to be His child, to be forgiven, set free, loved, to belong, and so much more.  And in resting in the “be,” you’ll do what you are.  It’s where I am at in this right-now-moment.  It is an exciting journey.

What will be your declaration this year?  What will you get back to being (not just doing) because of the grace of interruption? What will you be and then do this year that you’ve been saying you would do for years?  What ancient song is haunting you?  What melody is longing to catch your ear?  Whatever it is, give voice to it.  Whatever it is, pursue it.  Whatever it is, find out what it is and why it is beating violently in your chest.  It won’t be silent for long.  It will rise above a whisper.  It will become a lion’s roar.  It is you.  It was always who you were.  Now you can be aware of it.  It has always been you.

And guess what? It’s okay to be the real you.  You have permission to live your life, to be and live that holy passion you can no longer deny.  Whatever it is, God gave it to you.  For each of us it is different.  The beauty of it all is we are each uniquely designed.  When we are who we were made to be, the song becomes a glorious chorus and orchestra to the ears of the Maker of all things.

Hear this whisper… “permission to live your life is granted” because Christ is alive and when you come to know Him, He makes you fully alive.  Now, go live by just…being!  Let that being become what you do.  It was always who you were.

References:

Verses retrieved January 22, 2013 from http://www.biblegateway.com/.

Why We Get Stuck

I’m no psychologist, so I can only speak from my experience and observations.  I was pondering this notion of why we get stuck in life in the wee moments between sleep and awake.  Is it something caused by outside forces, or is it something we do to ourselves.  Maybe it’s even both.  I’m not sure, but I have own ideas of what this means.  I’d like to share them with you.

To be stuck implies lack of movement, groundedness, inability to take flight, glued down, nailed to the wall, frozen.  I mean the list could go on and on, but I think you get the general idea.  To be stuck means I’ve ceased living my own life, or that I’ve somehow given up on even trying.  I know lots of us have been there, done that, but some of us are still there and maybe even with one foot hung in mid-air.

Rather than play the blame game, take ownership of life.  We can be moving on along in many areas and stuck in only a few, or we can be completely stalled.  Either way there is something we can do about it.  It begins with me.  I have to cease the navel gazing and comparison-shopping.  I think you know what I’m talking about.  We can get stuck because we get so busy looking at what other people are doing that we forget we have lives, dreams, goals, purpose, and passions all our own.  Perhaps we think them not good enough, uninspired, unexciting, dull, and noncompetitive—but I say to you, is that really why we live?  To measure our selves against the standard of others?  To shrink back from living our own lives simply because they don’t match what others seem to be doing?  To make excuses because we are afraid?  We are only but half living if we are not living out what is deep within.

I think of the apostle Paul.  He didn’t allow himself to get caught up in what other people were doing.  He lived for the glory of One.  He sought to live only for One.  Paul wasn’t about getting stuck in life and playing the woe-is-me card.  He lived boldly and bravely.  He exhorted his brothers and sisters in Christ to do the same.  Here’s what he wrote to the Corinthians in regard to faith, wisdom, and living in Christ.  He wrote, 11 For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets.  No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit. 12 And we have received God’s Spirit (not the world’s spirit), so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us. 15 Those who are spiritual can evaluate all things, but they themselves cannot be evaluated by others.”

We each are unique.  We each have meaning and purpose, and it has nothing to do with copying what others are doing nor looking to them for success tips.  When we start looking to other, we can get stuck.  Later on in chapter 4 Paul exhorted the Corinthians to be accountable for living their lives.  He wrote, 2 Now, a person who is put in charge as a manager must be faithful. 3 As for me, it matters very little how I might be evaluated by you or by any human authority. I don’t even trust my own judgment on this point. 4 My conscience is clear, but that doesn’t prove I’m right. It is the Lord himself who will examine me and decide. 5 So don’t make judgments about anyone ahead of time—before the Lord returns. For he will bring our darkest secrets to light and will reveal our private motives. Then God will give to each one whatever praise is due.”  Each of us is accountable for living lives of our own no matter what we are doing in life—married, unmarried, widowed, or divorced.  Our life status is no reason to stop living a full and abundant life.

So here’s a little something to consider for today.  Are you stuck, or do you have forward momentum?  Is one foot raised in the air toward active movement, or have you buried your head in the sand.  Well, time to rise up.  Time to live.  Time to stand your ground and live your life.

Baby steps.  You don’t have to do it all at once.  Faith happens one step at a time.  So I’ve decided to follow Paul’s lead.  What have I to lose?  The weight and burden of false believing, comparing myself to others, and not owning up to the honor and value of my own life.  Enough!  I will look at my life and say, “it’s worth living and living well!”  In the midst of watching all around, I will remember that I have a life of my own, and I belong to Christ.  Look around in jealousy?  No.  Look around in despair thinking I’ve only half-lived my life?  No.  Look around and mercilessly judge myself in the light of others?  No.  Not going to do it.  Getting unstuck means taking ownership of me—lock, stock, and barrel.  It means honoring God by living out all he’s placed in my heart even if it goes against the grain.  Who cares!?!

I’m only accountable to One.  He gets the final say in my life—in all our lives.  So now when I look around, I can be genuinely happy for all around me because I know they’re living out their lives abundantly just as I am.  We’re each running the race before us.  The finish line is just in front of each of us.  Don’t look to the right.  Don’t look to the left.  The Father is just ahead of us, and I can hear Him saying, “Come on.  You can do it.  Keep your eyes on me.  I’m watching, and I’ll pick you up if you should fall.”  Here I come, Lord…running after you, looking right at you!

Need a little extra lift?  Check out these bible verses

1 Corinthians 1:11-16; 4:1-5; 12

2 Corinthians 5:9-11

1 Peter 1:13-16

Galatians 1:15-17; 5; 6:1-5