Of looking into another’s lane. Bad move. I lost my footing. Lost my ground. Got turned around. I made the mistake – one so very fatal – comparison. It can strike at any time while on the journey to your dream. Perhaps that’s what need to happen to us sometimes to help us catch hold of our God and His vision for us – the one we keep thinking is too big to pursue. But, it is worth it. I’m preaching to the choir here because I find myself in unchartered territories. Nothing here is making any near or remote kind of sense. It is out of the galaxy of my mind. Here, there, and everywhere are dreams bursting and making difference. And here I am…silent. Wondering, waiting, talking myself down from the ledge of success. The dream is bigger than me. The burgeoning reality of the dream is frightful. How can it be pursued if I know not its direction? Is this that moment to take it and make it fly? Is this the time to risk?
I. Am. Daunted. Still I hear whispers, “stay in your lane. Come on daughter, you can make it.” His assurance in me is far greater than the lack of assurance in my own heart. Now, in the quiet, I wrestle. He must come, find me here, rescue me, and set my feeble knees on Solid Ground. I’ll keep faithing it, stay in my lane, and write in my vein. It’s all I know, and maybe that’s okay. For this right-now-moment, it’s going to have to just be okay. This is the first valley. There are so many other climbers on this mountain. I can only say, “just reach up, one more to go; we’re almost there.” I can’t lose my ground. I can’t take my eyes of the summit line. If I remove my gaze, death may follow – not a physical death, but the death of a dream, the death of momentum, the death of authenticity. I must keep climbing. I cannot allow myself to be crippled by fear, the success of others, or my own abilities. Still I hear whispers, “be still; commit your life to Me; trust Me; rest in Me and wait patiently; don’t fret – it only causes harm.” I hear Him – the Father’s whisper – calms my heart and reminds me Whose I am. Backing into the shadow and shelter of His wing. Darkness is there, but He is God over the darkness and in the darken; therefore I am not alone. He is a good Shepherd.
What do you fear today? Leave it at the cross. Get real with God. Tell Him what’s happening. He won’t be surprised, and He can handle it. Nothing’s hard for Him. All He wants is you. He loves you. Listen for His whisper. He’s calling for you. You may have made a mistake, but God is a Redeemer. He’ll take you and all your mess. He’ll make it beautiful. Trust Him. In the silence, remember He is with you because He is Immanuel – the “with-us God” living right inside you. Now keep faithing it. Keep moving forward. Keep believing.
I leave you with this…
Psalm 37 (The Message version). Read these words. Pray these words. Rest in God. You are His beloved:
Open up before God, keep nothing back; he’ll do whatever needs to be done: He’ll validate your life in the clear light of day and stamp you with approval at high noon.
Quiet down before God, be prayerful before him. Don’t bother with those who climb the ladder, who elbow their way to the top. Wait passionately for God, don’t leave the path. He’ll give you your place in the sun while you watch the wicked lose it.
Verses from Psalm 37. Retrieved February 4, 2013 from http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+37&version=MSG